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Dear Lord,  

I wish my knowledge of You would make me the best human being.  

I wish that knowing how perfect a Father You are  

would make me a perfect daughter.  

I wish that knowing how perfect a Shepherd You are  

would make me a perfect sheep.  

I wish that knowing how perfect a Friend You are  

would make me a perfect friend as well.

I wish I didn't test Your patience,  

I wish I didn't play with Your grace,  

I wish I didn't take for granted Your loving kindness,  

I wish I didn't disobey Your perfect law.  

I wish I was perfect, just as You have longed  

and empowered me to be.  

But I am wretched, I am blind, I am sinful, I am naked.  

When I sing "Just as I am", I mean exactly that,  

because there is nothing I have  

that is deserving of even the very least  

of whatever it is that I receive from You.

But one thing I am so sure about,  

and I know You know well,  

is that I love You.  

Proving that has been hard  

because the things I do don't prove that;  

I actually still need You to prove it.  

But with all that is within me  

and all I can profess,  

I LOVE YOU.

I am grateful for each and every thing,  

each and every thing,  

especially the blessing of choosing me to be Yours.  

My journey with You has been the best  

that I have ever trodden,  

and with the many chances that life would offer me,  

I would still choose to walk with You.  

If there is any pride that I have ever been proud of,  

it is the pride of knowing You.

And I am here to plead:  

Please don't give up on me yet.  

Even if I have to fall,  

let me fall at Your feet;  

when I have to stand,  

let me stand by Your side.  

Please keep holding my hand,  

walking with me all through,  

and with whatever strength Your mercy will provide,  

I will follow Your lead.

I LOVE YOU, LORD.  

Your grateful daughter.

Charity